ry's journal

Zombie's intro

Hii heh uh im Zombie, im a teenager stuck in a small town in oklahoma and using the internet as a safe place, both to stop thinking and to socialize mainly. im a lonely fella okay? this is to document my journey healing

i started using dreamwidth becuz i wanted something similar to livejournal without using livejournal, journal so i can share, keep track of time, document myself, share fandom related stuff, and hopefully make friends. i was recently put in online school, my mental stability has fallen back i would say probs 4 years worth of steps, and i need something where i can interact with people who share similar interests, read and hear from other people's experiences while writing mine. i would use deadjournal but im as poor as a church mouse. i want to post my most unhealthy thoughts but dreamwidth will do for now. im also very afraid of the internet (ha..) so uh id appreciate it if i feel welcomed here. 

i rlly like music, i read rpf often, i watch cool movies sometimes, i draw now and then (ive lost my passion for it), i rollerskate and video game even less, and my guitar is lucky if i even pick it up. :) i dont go out often (not like i have anywhere to go), i have few friends, i talk mainly to my mom and my cousins, and uh my current fav album is Hesitant Alien!! but new things happen in my mind very often so id hope i get to share that, and the few times i go out, i like photography so i might share that as well. 

the music i like is mostly pre hiatus fob (trust me i will get past the hiatus at some point), mcr, p!atd, paramore, the smiths, weezer, the breeders, and uhmm... heres my spotify to help. I RLLY NEED MORE GIRLS SCREAMINF IN MY EARS. 

open.spotify.com/user/ebpn9yqaxddqtfn2nh392vweh

okay movies, i was recently watching like an hour of The Man Who Fell To Earth (1976) but i turned it off since i couldnt grasp onto it just yet right now, but i like House of 1000 Corpses, SLC Punk, Dawn of The Dead, Look Back, The Big Lebowski, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Almost Famous, Juno, Dazed and Confused, MFKZ, But I'm A Cheerleader, Donnie Darko, Whip It, the Nightmare Before Christmas, and a show i really like is Serial Experiments Lain. there are some movies and shows i havent mentioned becuz i havent watched them in a bit or the fact i dont have a great attention span means i dont have a big list.
i do have letterboxd but thatll come a later entry (hopefully.)

 i mainly like a few games, watching some puppet combo games, some others i cant remember right now. but 3 i like playing is sally face, hotline miami, and hotline miami wrong number. other than that i play roblox like barely.

today, i woke up from a 13 hour sleep at almost 1pm, i ate cereal, and watched Dawn of The Dead. i told myself i would do my homework, but i cant focus for what reason. i went outside a few times, and im thinking of going outside again to smoke, i dont know what but i will at some point. something i read on ao3 today is Down The Road That Takes Me Home, if youve ever read Anatomy of a Fall, theyre similar i heard. i already read some of dtrttmh but ive finished aoaf a few times but yeah i def see some similarities. after this post im gonna try to do some more work, watch a few more movies (im thinking Rocky Horror Picture Show), continue reading, and prob have myself a cigarette. 

byebye!!